Center of the Universe

If only I had a new car.
If only I had that house with that yard.
If only I had a farm near a beach.
If only the house were clean.
If only my kids helped a little more.
If only I read that parenting book.
If only I noticed my thoughts earlier.
If only I could fly like the yellow finches at my bird feeder.
Once, I asked Spirit to prove itself.
I said, “If you are real, help me find a yellow feather.”
A few weeks later, four tiny yellow feathers lay in my front yard.
If only I could find four yellow feathers,
and trust that I’m not the center of the universe.